It’s taken me a few attempts to write this post. The first draft was all over the place and vague. The second was to-the-point but didn’t offer the compassion that such news deserves. And finally, on my third attempt, I just wrote freely as if I were sharing the news with a friend. Because that’s what I think you all deserve. So here we go!
I’ve decided to leave HGTV’s Save My Reno
And while it’d be easier for me to simply leave it at that, I think you—and everyone who’s put their hard work into the show—deserve more of an answer.
The truth is that when I found out the show was green-lit to film a third season, I felt uncertain and I couldn’t put my finger on why. As the months passed leading up to the start of production, my uncertainty turned into a pit in my stomach, feelings I shared some of in The Pressure To Name It and Winging It. But it wasn’t until flying back to Ontario and chatting through the details of a quickly approaching start date that I realized I no longer wanted to work on the show.
As with many growing pains I’ve experience in life, the truth had been knocking at the door of my soul for a while—and I wasn’t answering it. I wasn’t anxious for no reason, I was experiencing cold feet about continuing something I knew wasn’t right for me any longer.
I tried to figure out a way I could continue working on Save My Reno while giving myself legs to explore what’s next, but gut feelings are a wild thing and mine were pulling me in another direction. One of change.
My intuition is relentlessly persistent, unwavering and—most importantly—has never steered me wrong. So I followed it. Which meant leaving behind something else, a show I had worked on and been a part of for years!
Where I’m heading exactly and what that looks like, I don’t know exactly. But I am pulled to return to my roots in art, design and branding. And I know to get where I’m meant to go requires me to be fully open and available as I continue trusting and listening to my guide, myself.
Coming to terms with this choice has been bitter-sweet: bitter because I’m closing the door on an opportunity many people dream of—as I once did—, but sweet because I know with my whole being that I’m doing what’s best for me. Despite the initial shock that this news may bring, I’m genuinely excited about what’s around the corner! But before I can move on from the show, I first have to hold some space for everybody who’s put their time into making it as great as possible, even when circumstances were tough. TV is not always an easy gig, but I am grateful for the experience and wish the show and HGTV nothing but continued the best.
To every fan, to every homeowner, and especially to everyone who’s worked onset and behind-the scenes, thank you for letting me into your homes! I had a great time getting to know you guys…
PS: Because I believe in good vibrations, I’m ending this post by sharing some of my immediate goals and things I’m currently giving my energy to:
Creative Work: My background is in illustration and graphic design, and I’m passionate about diving back into creative projects. [I offer illustration, graphic design, branding, website design, copywriting and social media art direction.]
Health and wellness: I’ve become increasingly interested in pursuing health and wellness as art of my work. Not only am I teaching yoga (through private lessons and online, soon!), but I’ve added a Lifestyle + Wellness category to my blog and will be sharing more on my tips, beliefs and practices, like this post on my personal wellness practices and rituals.
Travel and Exploration: Mike and I are planning out a ton of weekend getaways this summer throughout the Pacific Northwest (which started with our trip to Della Creek and Lillooet and ended with Tofino) so you can look forward to lots more of that!
Astrology: I’ve taken a huge interest in astrology lately—not only as a way to understand myself, but the world’s timing as a whole. If you haven’t read your natal chart, go do it. I’ll chat more about all of this in an upcoming blog post, but tapping into my intuition on a deeper level is something I’m enjoying exploring!
Community: Lately I’ve realized how important it is to be part of a community, be it creative, food-related, gal-pal crew etc. I’m super independent and love my downtime, but I’m ready to balance that out with getting involved in my community here in BC.